I am afraid I am running out of feet to put in my mouth.
I fear I continue to put my job on the line
I mean, one can hardly communicate or speak with two feet in one’s mouth…might be considered rude, to say the least
Perhaps tis the reason my head has been pounding these last couple of days
Or the reason I am unable to sleep at night
How, pray tell, does one find the balance, or the courage to move on
When all reason for doing so is gone?
Sometimes it’s scary knowing things…
Especially when you know things about other people that they do not know.
Or worse, especially when you know things they don’t want you to know.
Whatever happened to the purity of thought?
Whatever happened to trust?
Does anyone really know the meaning of the word ‘friend’?
Do we realize we have no right to be a friend if you are not willing to play the part?
A true friend gives of themselves, wholly and unconditionally
A true friend doesn’t ask why…somehow they already know.
A true friend isn’t afraid to tell you the truth, even though they know it could hurt you.
However, a true friend will know the truth is not meant to hurt, but to heal.
And sometimes healing hurts…
Why pretend?
Why?
It only takes perception and discernment to tell when you have been taken for a ride.
I thought I had it all together
I thought I had it all planned out
I don’t understand what went wrong
I’m wondering If I’ve been kidding myself
I do not understand
How do I measure success?
How do I measure failure?
By there standards I have succeeded
By my standards I have failed
I feel lower than the ground I walk on
I no longer want to face the world
Perhaps it’s just a moment that will pass
Perhaps it will not
Whatever the case
Life must go on
They say He holds our lives at the palm of His hands
They say He only wants what’s best for us
They also say we have to go to Him and ask for His help
Why then does His so called help cause so much suffering?
So the diamond has to be ground for it to be all shiny
But the rock that covers it serves a purpose
It protects the shiny valuable diamond on the inside.
Maybe that’s what some people are
The rock that covers the shiny diamond
That eventually gets ground away to nothingness…
Perhaps…
Perhaps…
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And they said one to another, Behold, this dreamer cometh. Come now therefore, and let us slay him, and cast him into some pit, and we will say, Some evil beast hath devoured him: and we shall see what will become of his dreams. There never was a question that Joseph had a dream. The question was what would become of it. There is also a dream within you. A dream from God means that God-inspired hope planted on the inside of you as a seed in your heart, made real in your imagination by the Spirit of God. And as with Joseph, when God plants a dream on the inside of you, the promise is often bigger than the person. One of the greatest gifts you have in your life is the ability to see beyond your present state—to dream. It is all about God’s great purposes and plans He has designed for you. No one can define your dream but you. God gives your dream to you alone. So what will become of your dream? Will you decline it? Will you develop it? Joseph’s dream didn’t develop overnight. He didn’t know that ultimately he would save his people and nation, but he figured it out. Will you birth it? Will you go through the process? Don’t bypass the process just for progress because you won’t be developed. Nelson Mandala said you’re playing small. The last thing the world needs is for someone to play small. Pursue the dream God has put in your life. There’s no difference between your “true” self and God’s plan for you. Your true self is made up of your deepest desires and gifts and abilities and dreams and passions. Your true self is what God created in you. It is who God made you to be. Instead of accepting the limits that have been placed on you, including the limits you have placed on yourself, pursue your passion! Just as Joseph’s brother intended to slay Joseph and end his dream, the enemy wants to destroy your dream because vision is the prophetic voice of God that drives you forward. Dream killers try to immobilize your life and put you in a place of bondage. Dreams come to pass when we step out and challenge life and take on the possibilities that lie before us. So keep on dreaming. You can do it. You can birth it. Whatever you do, don’t stop! Be confident that God will complete what He has started in you (Philippians 1:6). You don’t need to know everything. You may never know much of anything. But make sure you know that the same God who gave you your dream, who transformed you and made you a new creation, this same God will bring His work to completion. |
Wanna be evereything but you…
Wanna criticise everyone…
Wanna judge everyone…
Think you know better….
Be condescending to mask your weaknesses…
Preach water…drink wine…
Flip the switch…
Manipulate…
Claim to be holy…
Claim to be pure…
You think you’re the real deal in His eyes…
You hide behind His word…
You’re so wrong…
And you’ll be so busted…
And you know what…
I KNOW YOU BETTER THAN YOU THINK…
The real deal?
I THINK NOT!
One day you’ll move from seeing what you want to see and hearing what you want to hear and realize that there is a whole lot more than you think you know…if you just pay attention!
As human beings our lives are centered around our quest for our purpose, consciously or unconsciously, for those who are aware that they have a greater purpose, actively pursue it, for those who are not conscious of it, well, they focus on filling that void caused by lack of purpose (and originally by the fall of man) with things of a material nature and end up destroying there very essence and sometimes even that of those they interact with.
Now, because a greater force has to work within us for this purpose to be realized, and over time this greater force has been dubbed ‘God’ and to an extent become a brand, a lot of the world, cause of socialization and other influences <read ‘competition’> feel that ‘God’ is not the brand for me, it’s like ‘God’ the brand has been positioned to be so up there that people can’t reach it and to other people it’s positioned as too down there for me to go for it, Brand God has to come for me.
So the world moves away from God and goes for the competition which is physically manifested in the self help forums, self help books, money, power, sex, etc. cause that then becomes the greater force, cause they are unable, not necessarily from there own will, to fathom a force greater than that which they actually see. (Explains why people are afraid of there bosses and what the world refers to as ‘highly influential people’ because they are physical manifestations of what a ‘superior’ or ‘greater’ being is).
The hardest bit about faith and human nature is human nature requires physical proof to believe in something, whereas God is not really present in a physical form but manifests Himself in various physical forms <read His Creation>, but cause that’s not how we are taught to believe, people start missing the bark from the trees.
On the flip side, people who are consciously aware of a greater power that exists and constantly and consciously seek this, i.e. God, open themselves up to receive Him, but human nature still plays here, and cause of that eagerness to receive God, human beings leave themselves open to other fake spirits, and wanna be guides in our individual pursuits to seek God, that throw off even the most pure of Christians off an a wild goose chase, pursuing what it is that they think is the direction they need to go in pursuit of the ultimate purpose, this is still bearing in mind that His sheep know His voice.
Now, the eagerness we have in this pursuit can also be our downfall cause then we become susceptible to fakes in different forms and at different levels and as we walk closer it gets harder. But I don’t believe it is supposed to be that way , cause if God meant for us to receive Him like children, then being a God of order, things should just flow and we should be able to, cause of our instinctive nature, receive it without complication. The complication comes when we try and receive Him like adults.
I don’t really know how to explain this, but if you look at a child who ties a pillowcase round his neck and jumps off the top of the stairs, he does it because he believes he can fly. Then an adult comes and tells him not to be foolish, human beings can’t fly, and forces the child to think with all the barriers that are in an adults head, when in essence, all the child needed to know is, you can fly, just not with the pillowcase, and proceed to teach them about planes, or spaceships etc, that way you haven’t killed a dream but you have offered guidance.
As an adult we are aware of all the forces that are against us and focus more on them and fighting them, than on the active pursuit of our purpose, and this makes us angry, because you have to be angry to destroy something that is hampering your progress as you move towards your purpose. We should be happy as we pursue our purpose cause that’s what we were ultimately created and fashioned to do <sounds utopian, maybe it is>, the only way we will derive happiness is when that we were created to do comes to pass, cause you‘ve done God’s work how can we not be happy about that. One of the wonderful things we were given is free will, choice, we can choose how to pursue our purpose, focus on destroying everything in the way or focus on achieving the purpose and in that pursuit we are empowered to fight off the enemy without losing sight of the ultimate purpose. There’s a place in scripture that talks about what to focus on…will remember it.
I believe the loss of innocence is the reason for all our problems. Cause once the purity of our perception is burnt we then assume that that’s how it’s always going to be and we are then stifled. When kids play, and fall down, they don’t stop playing, when kids move from play school to kindergarten, they don’t stop making friends cause there old friends left, that’s why a child can have new best friend everyday. It’s no accident that we are called children of God, think about it, when were you able to take in and digest information at its best, learn a new language, how to read, basic math, AS A CHILD. The reason why if you destroy a child you destroy a generation, or a society, a country (think Sierra Leone, Rwanda). And as an adult in pursuit of purpose (more so with a scarred past), I believe we need to find the child in us so as to be able to start the journey afresh.
In our quest for God, we are surrounded by people/preachers/teachers/mentors/parents/peers/siblings who teach like adults, not Children (of God), cause children (of God) already possess all the wisdom they need to successfully go on this pursuit, that’s why we are called to believe like a child, when we believe like an adult people get lost and don’t really get to pursue there purpose fully cause it’s riddled with so many proverbial barriers. So, technically, what we all need is a Child of God to guide us and this does not have to be manifested as a human adult….don’t know if that makes sense, cause a Child (of God) will communicate rationality, inspired by God so that the quest for individual purpose is not interfered with by the barriers around. And this is not to say we go around our way merrily giggling like there is no danger that exists out there, it does, but like I said earlier, we choose what we will focus on and trust that the Good God who is guiding us on our purpose is also equipping as with what we need to wad off evil and not lose focus. I’m thinking where does my help come from….?
So, those are my random thoughts….for now.
The one your mama likes, the one your mama wonders about…you know… “how is that nice young…”
And you just can’t get why she does…but the reason is cause, your mama probably knows she’ll make you happy.
Strangely enough, your mama will never tell you to be with her…but deep down she hopes that your spirits will find each other…cause she knows and understands that kindred spirits need not be given direction by mortal man.
And for this reason, she is likely to be the woman you will never marry, but wish you did, as does she…but that will always remain your secret…or so you think…the woman you do end up sharing the rest of your life with, will see it in your eyes…and if she loves you, though not your kindred spirit, will carry the burden, of knowing she never was your kindred spirit and will never receive your love in its purest form…but will love you all the same.
Few mortal men are blessed enough to spend the rest of there lives with there kindred spirit, for mortal man gets too caught up in the mortal world to take the time to be guided by man’s immortal maker, to mortal man’s <with immortal spirit> kindred spirit…or soul mate.
For those who do…the journey through this life takes a more scenic, and peaceful route, even through the darkest parts of the path…
Our hope…our heart’s desire…is to find our one kindred spirit.
